I stand, where I stand, until the Lord calls me from it. My misery or my happiness is not an issue. His will is. I have called upon the Lord to show me the path and help me to walk it. There is a difference between knowing the path and walking the path. I am walking the path, having to call on the Lord at every fork in the road. I know not where it leads; there are no hard and fast deadlines in time, but there is a hard and fast faith to which I cling.
If the Lord calls me to question most heartily the path you would lead the Episcopal Church down, so be it. If I am to be a witness against you, yours, and your agenda, so be it. If I, a cradle Episcopalian, stand against you who joined the church out of rebellion to your former churches, then that is my role. You have taken the freedom Anglicanism provides to a Christian and gone wacko with it. If you were a cradle Episcopalian (and I just have no explanation for Susan Russell), you might understand this. There were always bounds to that freedom; I pity you were never taught this, that what cannot be proved by scripture cannot be a part of the Church. There is still a valuable place for Anglican Christianity in the world. If TEC chooses to forfeit it, may others take up its cause, for it is worthy.
In other words, people need Jesus, not the Jesus seminar.
I wish I could say I wish peace upon your houses. But I wish Jesus upon your houses, despite the complications that brings.
UPDATE TO THIS POST: My references to being a cradle Episcopalian have nothing to do with be haughty or proud, for I know the parable of the vineyard workers all too well and know that the Lord favors none by the timing of their arrival into the Kingdom or His service. However, I honestly feel that many join the Episcopal Church because of dissatisfaction with the particular denomination in which they were raised, and they have taken the inquiry and the freedom of Anglicanism that welcomed them in the first place and have turned it on its head. Those of us that suffered through the old style confirmation classes with tests and what not learned those boundaries that always defined Anglicanism. Frankly, not much of that is taught anymore in confirmation classes. Thus, when people see liberal orthodoxy as a pre-requisite or ordination or leadership in the church, incorporate labyrinths, non-Christian liturgy or liturgical elements in their churches, or change the words of the principal Sunday service from those that appear in the Book of Common Prayer (because the point of the BCP is that we are all supposed to use it, together), they have missed the point of Anglicanism as a strain of Christianity altogether. I am extremely sad because of this. Also, what makes me even more sad is that so many of my liberal “friends” tell me I should just get lost and go elsewhere with people that agree with me in disagreeing with them on same sex issues and the authority of scripture. What Anglicanism believes about these things has to be congruent with the Anglican formularies, and when it comes to same sex blessings, congruent with what scripture teaches. Otherwise, it isn’t Anglicanism any more. I am sad because I am an Anglican, that is how I do church, my personal theology, and from where my spiritual roots have always been nourished. But, because I believe what Anglicans have always believed, I am supposed to leave the Episcopal Church so I can be happier? I think that is a pretty superficial definition of happiness. The other point I make is that TEC will lose the mantle of Anglicanism in the United States if it rejects the covenant, and, well, I hope someone, and maybe that is ACNA, will take up the mantle.